If you are not growing it isn't always what you think.

To day I received a collection notice from a video store. Of course it was one of those big bad notices that made you feel like you could never recover from it. I called the Collection service to find out who and what it was. It was a very small amount but inside I was going crazy. I just hated that someone could just send me to collections, with out letting me know that I owed them. Some thing way down inside of me was so bothered. I could see myself getting bothered, I kept saying my affirmations of what I am grateful for, but, I was still bothered. I asked my self what in the past had I been thinking that this showed up now. As we know what we were thinking in the past will show up in our lives now. What we are thinking and feeling now will be our future now. I know all this stuff. So I also asked myself what is it I am going to learn about myself now that this is with me. I sat down took big breathes and let out the tension I was feeling. I told myself even if this can't be solved, I can pay the debt easily so why all the fuss. I was starting to feel much better. I let the feeling get intense and let it wash over me. I knew a big Ah, Ha moment was surely coming to me. Because I have lately been aware of taking a look at what comes up for me in my life.
Everything in my life is and has come into my life because of my thoughts and emotions about that thing, which then creates a feeling. I use to think that if I visualized what I want and brought up really happy good feelings with that picture, that was how it would come to me. However I have found that the formula is to THINK-PUT EMOTION TO THAT THOUGHT-which has action with it. THEN I WILL HAVE A FEELING THAT WILL BRING THAT VIBRATION OF THE SAME TO ME.
So this is what I did today.
I sat down and took deep breaths felt the feelings intensely,
let them wash over me then the anger and self pity dissipated away.
My next step was to allow that this debt wasn't all that terrible, if I had to pay it then I would.
I took action called the video people and said that I wanted to take care of the debt. I also said I wanted it to be fair to them and me, would they help me. They said that it could be taken care of easily, to call tomorrow when the manager is there.
So this is why this showed up for me. It is my past thoughts showing up now as things in my life to show me that I really do create, and to look at how I see money in my life. To make sure I am not creating some of the same pain bodies, and change what ever fears, pain, anger I have left about money. I don't have to figure out what, why or where these pain bodies come from. I don't have to go into a big story to know that I have created them in the past. It was just an experience from some left over past creations to teach me that I am on the right path, to keep going, keep doing what I have been doing to bring more abundance to me. I know that the path I am on right now will bring me great wealth, health, success, peace, beauty,romance,fun, freedom,service, joy, giving and love. I have 10 fingers and two palms, these are the words I have given to each of them to help me to remember what I am and what I am creating in my life. Each day is such a delight now it is never a dull day and I am getting wiser and wiser with each wonderful day. So when you start to feel bad, remember it is easy to let it go, allow it to come in as a feeling then watch it go away. Then get back in the saddle again of creating what you want. I hope my experience has been up lifting for you as it has for me. Pain bodies can be wonderful teachers if we don't hang on and make a big story out of them. They are actually pretty comical if you really think about it. Have a great Sunny Day!!!!!