Last night I had my 3rd week of our Warrior Group. A group that was established while attending James Ray's Fabulous Harmonic Wealth Weekend. I have an awesome group. I was reminded last night on the call that I needed to look inward to see why I had what I had coming into my life. Later that night on another call from one of the members I was asked do I belief James, do I really believe what he is teaching. If I did I would not be living my life with low vibrations. James teaches that we must avoid at all cost anything that weakens us. I have been living for 5 years in a place, working at a job, going to a church, and I was last winter eating food that was not making me stronger. This is the awareness I have come to today. I had a good tear fest this after noon, because what was said last night had just struck me like a 2x4 board. I was lulling myself into thinking that this life was okay. That the place I lived had such great trails just over the ridge to go running on, I have used this lie as one of the things I tell myself to keep myself stuck. It hurts so bad to know that all that I think I am working for is just a big facade. I have been settling in my life for so long I don't even see it when I am doing it.
What really brought all this up is that I expressed to my group that I had gone to Bend OR. to meet a man who I thought might work as a partner for a husband. When I got there and saw the person that I had picked out for me, I felt disappointed in myself. I am sure this man was very nice and had some good qualities. But he wasn't anything I am dreaming of. So why did I go and do that to myself. I asked myself this question on the way home. I did come to the conclusion that I must stop settling for what I don't want.
I do believe in the teachings that James is teaching, and it is time for me to have some bold action. I am so scared right now, it comes from the years of trying to be perfect for my perfectionist parents (both of them) There was always a big production of how well I could do something. But it wasn't my way, it was their way. I understand that is all that they knew and that is ok. But now it is my life and I want to do it Royally, not in some illusion of being ok for now, or next year it will be different. I said that I was going to take this job for one year and here it has been five. Nothing is going to change unless I take a huge outrageous step toward my goals.I read this from Deepak today and I decided to share it here.

By Deepak

The most common story the mind tells is that you are your ego, a fixed “I” that is separate from the rest of the world. If you believe this story, it keeps you in bondage. The ego is limited, subject to fear, and consumed with the idea that it has to know what is going to happen in order to feel safe. The truth is that we don’t know what is going to happen. Really feeling safe, peaceful, and content comes from knowing that your true self is pure spirit, unbounded in time and space.

When you know the real you isn't inside your head, you have been set free, like awareness itself. Embracing the wisdom of uncertainty not only frees you from the ego’s illusion of control, it puts you right in the middle of the joyful flow of cosmic creativity. That is a much more enjoyable place to live life.

If you are living in the thrall of conditioned thought-patterns, now is the time to free yourself from your self-imposed incarceration. The key to unlocking the door lies within your soul. You can find it by listening to your inner self and identifying where you are living in bondage.

Being fully alive means continually striving to expand freedom in your life. When you move beyond your limitations and expand your sense of identity, exhilaration rises from your depths.

One of the greatest obstacles to true liberation is limiting beliefs and habitual behavior, including the mistaken idea that external forces limit our happiness ― “I am depressed because I’m stuck in an abusive marriage.” “I have this ulcer because my boss is controlling.” “I always get into bad relationships because my father abandoned me when I was young.”

We accept these limiting beliefs and engage in perpetual internal negotiations with these restrictive voices, never reaching agreement on the terms for our release. Common excuses I hear include: “As soon as my youngest child graduates high school, I’m leaving this toxic marriage,” or “Once I’m vested in my pension plan, I am saying goodbye to this stagnant job” or “After I get through the holidays, I am going to start exercising.”

If you are living in the thrall of conditioned thought-patterns, now is the time to free yourself from your self-imposed incarceration. The key to unlocking the door lies within your soul. You can find it by listening to your inner self and identifying where you are living in bondage. Try it now.

Take a few deep breaths, close your eyes, and become aware of any sensations of discomfort in your body. If you identify a place in your body that feels constricted or congested, ask yourself, “What life issue is this sensation telling me about?” Recognizing that emotional conflicts are often expressed as physical tension, allow any bodily sensations to bring your attention to possible mental debates you are having with yourself. Ask what you can do to create inner peace and free yourself from conflict. Plot your escape.

Being fully alive means continually striving to expand freedom in your life. When you move beyond your limitations and expand your sense of identity, exhilaration rises from your depths.

True freedom comes from breaking loose from the prison of past conditioning and the repetition of old memories and thought-patterns. The past is the known and offers no opportunity for choice and possibility. And the future exists only in the imagination. Freedom lies in the present moment, the only place where you can choose from an infinite range of possibilities.

Soooo....... I am breaking loose from my prison of having nothing I want. What I have now is what I use to be. My life isn't who I am it is who I use to be.

I will be writing soon to let you know what the

huge outrageous step
is that I am taking. I know it is big and it is

what I need to do to get my life jump started.

Send me lots of blessings so I can do this.

Thank you. Now go and do something

that brings you to your dreams.

Love Jacklen