Staying Conscious

It has been awhile since I have put some new stuff on my blog. Many things are changing in me and I am not sure how to express them. I just know that I am excited about how my life will change and move through this existence on the earth. I am taking a huge look at being awake and seeing where I am sleeping in my life and not being totally open to being awake.
I was having a tuff time with some judgment of a person who is my life. I tried to see how I was like this person, because when we have such strong feelings about someone it is usually because there is a part of us that holds some of that energy inside. It is energy to protect us or to remind us of what we have not wanted to see or look at or work on. So it took me sometime to accept that I am like this person, then it took another day to see what message I could learn from this energy that I was so desperate to keep hidden inside of me hidden so I don't know how much help it could be to me.
It wasn't that I am totally like this person, it is that there is some part of that person inside of myself that has either been protecting me or keeping me from some sort of hurt for fear. I found out that the part of me that was poking its little head out and saying to run, "no this is not true" that "I could not possible be like this person" was the part of me that I tell that it is stupid and that I would not be stupid anymore. I felt stupid when ever i stepped in a hole and tripped, or scraped my arm, or said something that really wasn't good for that moment. That was the part of me that I didn't want to see or be like. So when I was around this person I would shutter, I didn't say anything to him, I just kept it all bottled up inside of myself. But I was carrying it all around with me and I couldn't stop saying how can I be like this person.
So it really isn't that I am really like this person, it is the part inside of me that I felt the same feelings about this person, (stupid, no sense, doesn't have a clue,) is inside of me that I don't accept about myself. So I talked to the part of me that I am ruthless with, the part of me that is stupid, how could I do that, I don't even have a clue etc. I could see that this part of me is there for me by showing up for me when I am into my head, not conscious, just letting my head go on a tangent about some thought. It is one of my pain bodies. Lacey helped me to see that I can make friends with this feeling about me, when it comes up and I start hurting myself and getting way out there in my mind I can just see that it is only a reminder to get back to my real self of love and peace.
I have found two things that have helped me do this. One is to say the word YES over and over like a mantra, or the name of Christ from the Hebrew language which is - Jeshua another way of saying it is yeshiva, and said with a Y sound yeshua. This is where the word yes comes from. There are many ways to say the true name of the Creator.
The second thing that has helped me is to listend to Gregg Bradens God Code CD. He explains that we have the name of the creator in every one of our cells. That our cells are made up of Gods name. The creator of this Universe is in everyone of our cells!
If you have not heard it, do it. If you haven't listened to it lately, do it.
Just saying the name over and over like a meditation will bring you to love and peace. I promise you. We are all Gods, walking around thinking we will become some day after this life. But if we are a child of God, then we are little gods after we are born. Aren't our children little people just like us. Then we grow up we don't really know or don't want to be like our parents. So we don't.
But we are little Gods, and when we grow up we are still able to be Gods. Bringing peace and harmony to ours and others lives through, Agape love which is understanding of others. It is being unconditional with ourselves and everyone else. So today is a new understanding of myself. I know now how to bring peace to myself and share that with others. It is a choice everyday now to bring the God Code to my memory for I am a God. Literally according to scripture and science. I am so gratetful for the scientist part in Gregg, and that he is not afraid to talk about God and the power that is in us. Wonderful! Love and peace to you all.