Cup of Chocolate a Day might keep your feeligs away.

Yes I am writing more on the chocolate addiction I spent years getting over.
When my Friend Linda and I went to Italy to watch my daughter Lacey and her ski team in the 2006 Paralympics we were amazed at how much chocolate was sold and bought there. You could go into a cafe and oder a cup of hot chocolate and they would bring out a small cup with literally melted chocolate. People would sip on it so it was like having a chocolate bar in a cup. It wasn't like in the USA were we take chocolate milk and warm it up and serve it as hot chocolate. In Italy they served what we asked for; chocolate hot in a cup.
After many months of being chocolate free, I noticed all the times that I had turned down an invitation to have some chocolate. At first I told everyone "No thank-you I don't eat chocolate." But because most of the people who offered were saying "What! of course you eat chocolate!"
"Here you have to try this"and "Oh, here just have a little bit, just try it you'll love it." I decided to just not explain or say that I didn't eat it, but just no thank-you. It was hard to convince
some that I really didn't want any of their... precious chocolate. I felt mad and upset at first, but didn't say anything. I thought what if people did that to an alcoholic or someone who was a diabetic and couldn't eat sugar. How inconsiderate of them. My eyes were very aware of how much people push sugar and chocolate off to someone else. Maybe if other people eat it with them then, they don't feel so bad themselves for eating so much of it. I know what it was like for me when I was still using chocolate as a drug. I would go to a dinner party and want to eat just the chocolate desert all night, because of what others might think I didn't, but I wanted to.
I would have cravings come on after I had been off of it for a few weeks. All I could think about was chocolate. I would give in and head to the nearest grocery store and get two or three bags of dark chocolate or semi-sweet chocolate chips and stash them until they were all gone. I then would go on a strike against chocolate again. It would be the merry-go round until the day I knew I could not do this alone. I asked for a healing. (that story is below in the prior blog)
When I walked out that day knowing that I was whole and no longer craved chocolate I realized that I was forgiven for any and everything I had done up to the very moment to hurt myself and others. I had created a new me, I was whole I was clean, I was brand new!

Chocolate would cross my mind every once in awhile, after my healing, but it was not the same urge or craving that I had before. I was living a free life without the cravings and guilt and shame. I was taking a good look at myself and noticing that I had been carrying around a great deal of pain and self doubt inside of me. I started to realize that I had done this to myself, my thoughts were my own worst enemy. I was depressed about the failures I had in my marriage and with my children. I focused on that and so I used chocolate to give me some pleasure. Now without it I needed to replace those old thoughts with new up lifting thoughts. I was doing a pretty great job of staying positive when my Dad passed away. I didn't start eating chocolate again but I was so sad and I missed going to him with advice I needed about my life. The sadness came to me with the sweet memories of my childhood with such a great father. I was very close to him, we did so many great things together. We learned how to snow ski and water ski with each other. I rode motor cycles with him and we had many late night talks about religion and faith and God. He was so open and easy to discuss things with. On the day of his funeral I couldn't believe the day had come that I would be going to my fathers funeral. I was in the bathroom getting my makeup on when I smelt this familiar sent. It was the sent of Camey Soap. That was the soap my mother bought while I was growing up. It is the sent that our bathroom in McCall Idaho smelt like and after all these years, I all of a sudden could smell it very distinctly. My thoughts went back to the memories of our summers in McCall, we use to call it "The Lakes" when I was a little girl. I knew that the only other person who knew that smell and could possibly be in the room with me at that moment was my Dad. I came to the conclusion later that because I was in my bathroom he used a familiar sent in my memories so I would recognize that it was him. My dad had a very good sense of humor and I am sure that was something he would do. Because he knew so many people that loved him and would miss him I think he just used what he could so as to get to as many people as he could to say good bye. I was grateful for that message with the soap, it helped me to know that he love me and that I was not going to be forgotten. There have been many times that my Dad has been with me since then. He lives and he helps me to this day with things that I struggle with.
I have noticed when receiving information from the spirit world so to speak or my angles, when a message is given it is done with simplicity and familiar energy. This helped me with my decision that I would be free of chocolate. To know that I am loved and that I have someone on the other side of the veil cheering for me to do well on this planet life.
Now when I want to let go of other things in my life, that stopped me from moving forward, I take it to a special place in my heart, which now is my alter. I pray and ask for help. I take my thoughts that are held in our three upper chakras and put them to an emotion. Here is a side note about emotions: (I have listened to Candice Pert speak on a CD from her book- Your Body Is Your Subconscious. She is a scientist who has written many wonderful books and papers about our bodies. She says that we have the same receptor sites all over our body that are in our brain. She also says that our emotions are very important for our natural chemicals to be released properly into our cells.) So if you put that with what Gregg Braden says: we put these ideas with the emotions we can come up with a feeling. The feeling is going to move these natural chemicals or drugs we produce in our bodies to the proper cell receptors and we are going to feel better. This can also have a reverse affect if we feel stressed all the time. I believe this is true. When I decide what I want to replace my addictions with, which brings up a better feeling, my body works with me to make that happen. When I put this with asking my spirit and God I can move a mountain. My own mountains. There have been several times I have seen in myself, things that needed to be changed, since my chocolate experience. I take them to my alter. Some of them I have kept picking up and holding on to for dear life before I let them go. But in the end I finally said enough and off they go.

What is it you want to put on the alter of your life? Do you need help with it? Put a comment on my blog and let me know.
I send you a bright light in your heart to Day!